my broken heart

Maybe b4 I really think about want to break up with u, but now when u said it out 1st, at that time I only realized my heart is pain… maybe I love u more than I expected already… or maybe its deeper than d sea… we just together for not so long only, but how come I so sad? Before that I told u I liked sunrise, because its give a hope to us… but now I don’t like sunrise, because every morning I woke up, then I realized how cruel is d reality… without u, time flow so slow, a strong feeling of loneliness in my heart… like my friend said, regret is worse, even worse compared to dying… sorry to say that, I am… but time will heal… but even though my heart is healed, in d deepest, there’s no ones can see…. There is still a scar there, that cannot be healed…my heart is like a fragile glass, once broken, it cannot be back d original one … no matter how hard u try… because its already not a perfectly heart… I thought your heart is with me, but don’t know since when, u already taken out from me…

break up with him

today he break up with me, I thought I wont cry out, but how come i still crying out, maybe I love him already more than he loves me... I cant see his face right now, so I really don't know whether he is sad or not... but I am really sad ... he is my 1st officially bf...

my seniors

Today I met back my St.John seniors…. And its make me think back of my form4 that time, I feel very good because can met them again… but I also feel sad ler, because we didn’t talk much like before…. And now I not close with them already….

relationship

Have been long time didn’t update my blog already…. Today I really feel very tired… from both mental n physical….I try hardly not to let go our relationship, but how come he can easily change his mind… why he always not believed in me, he seems lost confident to our relationship already…I really feel very upset because he also admit that he is losing his confident .. actually I really want to be together with him for very long time , but if he is really lost confidence with our relation, then there is no meaning for me 2 continue already